Efforts

I was shocked. terribly schocked when I push out my Physic test from a stack of other friend's test. I got 2.5! What a stupid person that could make those grades!! And it is me!!

I wasnt that dissappointed, but like several minutes later, I feel so stupid. I have tutorials every Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. I study almost every night. Where in the world that grade came from?? I honestly felt coulndt do that impromptu daily Physic test, but I never thought it would be that bad. I am disliking myself for being overly stupid. I am questioning myself why I couldnt do the test. That 2.5 is the worst grade Ive ever had during my whole life time. SUCK. That's first.

Second. I AM MAD. I didnt even ask anybody the answers of the test and I did not open any books. Others did. And what happened? Others got terrific grades. They passed the test. I know it is common. I often experience that kind of thing. I didnt cheat and others cheated. Then Got worse grade than them. It might also happen to anybody like me that doesnt like cheating. Its common and I used to feel like nothing happened. didnt care. But why I feel so damn mad today?? Cz that 2.5 is too low, just too low. I hate it. Its very unfair.

I wish teachers graded the honesty of the students.

I realize cheating is a very common thing during school period even college perhaps. I dont like cheating, but I do like all my friends though my friends do cheat. Well what can I do if I do not like cheating and I do not like cheaters (read: my friends)? For right now, I cant say I hate cheaters. Got no friends if u hate cheaters cz everyone in the world are cheaters -___________-

But jut Please dont suggest me to follow others to cheat. I hate cheating.