November Wish

Wish me the strength of all elements. From earth, air, water, and fire.

Medically, I'm not in my good condition. Ive been going to the doctor back and forth. I dont really know what im dealing on, what kind of sickness i have, and what i should do. My parents keep telling me to believe that everything is gonna be alrite, just pray and take medicine, I'll be okay. well, i hope so.

I dont really know what causes that made me like this. My body immune system is getting weak, as if my leucosyte stop reproducing themselves. Its not necessirily getting weaker, its just getting up and down, mostly down.

My parent think I got stressed, I need to be happy to heal myself. I AM HAPPY.

Maaannn, im tired. Feels like im gonna die. Ive been trying to not get stressed. I am not depressed. I AM NOT. I feel comfortable with everything right now, my school, and myself. With those cases, I dont think Im sick cz of depression.

Everybody said Im too skinny, they assume Im very stressed to be a 12th grader, Im not, my scikness is making me stressed though im trying to not think about it. Every morning Im trying to pretend that im okay, im getting up with the spirit that i can collect as could as possible. So far, it works, morning is good time to smile. But night comes, feel like Im in the other side of me. Im so overwhelmed, im tired, i dont do any work-out-thingy or really-heavy-acitivities though, but I feel no power.

LOL. I still have like a really long time as an adolescence, but I feel really old. Something is not right, but lemme take it right. Pray and everything is going to be fine. all is well.