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Jumat, 28 Januari 2011

a little story of stories

Im more comfy nowadays, i had fun at school lately and recently, and i am having fun at school. This semester would be a way fun than last semester! wow.
still, the feeling like "it's my school" hasnt come yet. I'll have that kind of feeling if i know most of people at school. promise. but i know i wont make it. that seems impossible to know 4000 people to be friends or at least acquintances. im kinda like dependent to my friends, i feel like there's nothing i could do but chit-chat with them. but not that much in here. my broken english still lean on me, little hard to make a really good communications. oh when am i gonna be an awesome english speaker..........? live abroad a year not full-guarantee you can speak english well, for me @ least, idk for somebedy else though.

alrite. in my previous post i told you that im not gonna like my bio class. and no im not. im trying but i cant make it. i keep yawning at class. the class is so boring. sometimes my eyes will wide open if i hear the teacher tell me things that i never heard/learned before. that makes me pay attention to her and that is good for me. otherwise, i dont like the class situation (did i write it before?), well i dont care i could write it over haha. the students are noisy, they talk a lot, and write slow (sorry fellas :p) that make me upset. why dont they sit and write still, listen to the teacher and ask questions beside "are we taking notes?" -.-"

okay. things that make me happier than classes (some not, like bio n math) is a lunch time haha. well, everybody like lunch time. but wait, not for me when i first just got here.

i love my friends. you can tell :D. these friends are different specially for a friend that i just like her! (u would not understand what im saying), the point is i know that i'll cry a lot with my deep heart by the time im leaving US, means im gonna leaving them :( *dramatic :p but yeah idk when am i gonna see her after im leaving rite?

we had fun every lunch. we go to clubs or hanging around accompany one of us to a class cz we need to do something. it was interesting when for the frist time i went to CSU club (Christian S Union, idk what S stands for), im the only scarf-girl (read: moeslem) in the middle of Christians haha. that was interesting to hear them talk about Bible, it wasnt too-too Christian though. it was more general for everybody. we went to Best Buddies one time, had lunch with some handicap students at school. we played cards with them. that was a lot of fun. maybe they didnt know (include my friends) how happy i was that time cz i didnt show my too-happy-expression, but i didnt stop smiling, i loved being around them. such a blessing shared happiness with them. i would love to do it again.

last weekend my friend invited me to her church, a Hispanic church, they had a concert at night, and yeah that was a lot fun as well. though people speak Spanish most of the time, i dont care, i liked when they sang and played games together (they spoke english when playing games) and the host were like welcome me, my friend talked to him to speak in front of audience mention that they had a guest from Indonesia! that was awesome. i was standing and people were clapping their hands for me, some people shaked hands with me, smiled and said welcome. lol.

awwww. by the way i'll write something about my dreams. i've been dreaming like really wierd. it happened for 4 days in a row or 3, i cant remember. the dream plots are similar. i'll write it later.

Sabtu, 15 Januari 2011

New Spirit (?)

heeeyyyy
this semester i have 2 new classes! ♥♥
the bad thing is i should leave my theater class which means leave my friends. ooo they're just so nice. i left already actually. It made me a little hesitate to switch, but theater was so boring (not really though, i was just not liking to speak in front of people with broken english), sometimes theater was fun when i watched people acting, do silly things and stuffs that was entertaining. but i didnt like when my turn to do that, big no. sometimes, it was so boring, the teacher just let us to do works for two weeks! easy one! -.- so we just sat in black box or auditorium or cafetaria doing easy works for weeks. so i moved. it was sad when my friend in theater said "dont move! i'll be lonely!" i know, i have great partners, Manisha, Crystal, n Peter aww u guys made my days here :p but i should take another fun class to color my year.
second class, it was psychology. i loved it, but it's a semester class, i have to switch, i was in business class but i didnt like it, really that's boring i think, so i switched.

so, im in Biology and Choir!! :))
you know, life is pathetic (not me) haha. especially when u forget every single easy thing becuase FUN time killed you!! i started to forget science, my major study in Indonesia back then. So i decided to take at least one science class which is Biology. My counselor a little doubts me that i could deal with Biology since i didnt take Bio in d first semester. I told her i've learned Bio in Indonesia, so she wanted me to talk to Bio teacher about my case. n YKW? i was really upset, she doesnt trust me either i could deal with that! she doubts my reading comprehension, well i know im not english speaker but i'll try though, i've learned biology! the most annoying thing, she called ESL Bio teacher and offered me to just get in her class. What the..! I dont want it of course, so i decided to get in regular Bio instead of pre-AP Bio.

So there i am now. In Regular BIO (im d only junior there, regular Bio is for freshman n sophomores). i dont know what to say. I took the bio benchmark test, the first test, that was hard, (actually easy), i forgot easy thing in Bio. -_____- but the following days, well, it was about easy things ive learned in 7th grade. idk, i think i dont like it. n im not gonna like it. but i should like it, otherwise my semester will not going good.
the other bad thing is, the bio class is far, it's located in the old building of my school, i have to pass the field to get there, in winter time, that is no good, cold and far -.-"

d second class i'm in is choir. lol. i never thought to take this before. i cant sing well. i didnt have basic music theory but guitar stuffs. i have to be able to catch up, otherwise i left behind. i was nervous when d first day came lol. it's silly i know. i was afraid the choir people are hard to accept new person since they're close together as a group since last semester. I relieved knowing im not the only new student there, yaiy! n i relieved knowing people there are soooo awesome, they're nice :) sooo im gonna like being a part of them :p

yap. those are them. new spirit. let's start this new semester with recite basmallah. hoho. i hope im gonna be fine for this last 6 months. seriously, i know im gonna miss everything here! i think i'm gonna like the rest of my time hereeeee! yaiy! i promise i'll cry by the time i have to pack my things :(

Rabu, 05 Januari 2011

i feel strange, really strange

(blog gue jadi kayak diary, isinya curhatan haha)

i dont care if there are people read this or not. I really wanna have personal diary but i just cant. idk why, i never have diary for a long time, like permanently. i prefer typing than manual writing. and i dont care if people want to read this or not, but i do care if there stranger read this, i mean people that i dont know. it just interesting to have people like that reading my post, so i wont embarassed since they dont know me lol. ok. enough. this writing are not important actually.

well,

i have many dreams, i wanna be someone in law background but not a lawyer, i want to work in medical things but not a doctor or nurse, i want to be a writer- a really good writer, i want to be a rich person, i want to have a religious,kind,cute,and wealthy husband, i want to feed many poor people with my money, i want to travel the world, i wanna have many friends and networks, i want to be able drawing or painting and singing and playing instruments, i want to be happy with all of those.

i never said that before, waw.

it sounds so greedy i know. But nevermind, i dont really attempt that though. It just my fantasy.

yeah, fantasy. that word. fantasy. fantasy really make me drunk and weak.
actually i'm not gonna write about my dreams-fantasy, instead, my fantasy which stuck in my head. im crazy. let me tell you n u can tell me that im crazy.

i have this fantasy everyday, and almost every single time even if people are talking to me. I was doing this CONSCIOUSLY since i was in 6th grade. So, this fantasy is a story made by me, im making a story in my head. I have quiet many characters, more than 3 guy and 3 girls. Im making a plot, un-neat plot. Sometimes it could finish for one night when i intend to go to bed, sometimes it continue till the next day even 3 days. and it could be repeat over for next week or month in the similar story and i never bored of it. Sometimes i make a story related to my life (with the same characters, not me) in the same setting where i used to live, like my real school, my real home, my real friend's home (n my friends will involved in it but me, im just a storymaker), but i will make a fiction story every i go to bed. Idk why i feel uncomfortable if i involve my real life in a go-to-bed-story (well call it fantasy rather that story anw). I always do it when im alone. Otherwise, not always, but often.

I used to do that and i loved it that way till i went to 11 grade SHS. It changed. I started to feel strange of myself. Those fantasy started to make me crazy. I become un-focus on everything. I started to make myself UNCONCSIOUSLY have that story in my head, especially if im bored. The thing, idk why that fantasy only came once in my dream. Though i do it almost in every single time. Nowadays, actually since 11 grade i become such a teribble girl who are confusing everything. I spent most of my time to do something that actually wasting, make me not sensitive to surrounding. I feel strange, un-focus. I often promise to myself, i will never make that kind of fantasy again. It never happen. The most successful one was 3 days in a row i could stop that fantasy in my head, but then it came up again. I also ever tried to write down my story in my head rather that just stuck it in, but every i intended to do it, i felt i couldnt, idk how to start and where to start becz my story never make sense. It's "too fiction" (but not kid's story).

Now, the characters that i make seem real. I know their faces, literally. They just looked real now. Look, im crazy!

Honestly, it starts to make me more insane. I dont want to have it. but nothing i could do except i want to try to get rid of it by denying it. I feel im crazy. -.- oh lord. get me out of there.

i feel silly now.

Senin, 03 Januari 2011

last holiday, then happy holidates

2 weeks off just went so fast. tomorrow will be my first day in spring semester. im nervous lol.
bismillah.

--dealing with homeworks again, cant tell...~{'0'}~

Minggu, 02 Januari 2011

Happy New Year!

the day before new year eve, we had Sarah -my Indonesian friend- at our house. we had fun with her, yes, sure we did. We hung out for spending our last winter break and welcome d new year! :) we went shopping and saw movies. well, me myself watched many movies actually with friends, mom, or alone rent a movie, let me list it,
Inception, Eat Pray Love, Shallow Hal, Kite Runner, EasyA, Leap Year (those are mom and I rented) and movies which we saw in movie theater, Narnia, Harry Potter, True Grit, How Do You Know, and Gulliver's Travel. LOL. I never saw that much before in a short periodic time. -.-"
but yeah, as i told you, Winter Break: shopping, iceskating, and see movies. You know, Houston is not a "Holiday Town" like California or Florida where they have a lot of fun things like Disney World, Disney Land, -whatever it is called-Parks, Beaches, etc. Oh seriously. I wish my mom didnt work in winter break, she would be take me to far and more fun places. Well, that wasnt bad though :) doing fun things with friends and mom just so awesome.
In New Year day, my grandma took us to her best friend's house in Piney Point for New Year Party. The house was just so cool. It's a big house and the owners are attorneys. The guests are mostly lawyers or attorneys as well. I would be love to live in such that wonderful house but i dont want to take care of it lol. And i loved the foods! haha.



Happy New Year :)



Like a baby (i was laughing when this was taken haha)