Rabu, 29 Desember 2010

ready for 2011?

ready for 2011?
i hope so.

tonight i went dinner with mom in Panda Garden (our favorite restaurant), in the middle of meal we had conversation about what resolution we're gonna make for 2011.
and these are the things mom named it for me:
1. more assertive
2. speak louder
3. making more friends

and this is i named for mom:
1. dares to say 'NO'

let me contemplate.
bismillahirrahmanirrahim. :)

Sabtu, 25 Desember 2010

be grateful

i'm excited!
today is christmas morning, i know im not suppose to celebrate christmas but i have to.
last night was a blast, well that's not true. but still, it was good. on christmas eve i had dinner with mom, grand2, and neighborhood, they're all old -.-" i barely didn't speak up. sometimes i laughed listened to their stories, it was pretty funny but mostly i was only in silence haha. but im grateful, let's rejoice for what God had given to us.
i just opened my christmas gift from mom, i got two books (that i love it), a book mark, chocolates, a box of cards n envelopes, and a diary book :). im grateful :)

i'm excited!
i never seen snow before! lol. well, that's not true. i never seen snow for a real! n i'm gonna see it soon haha (maklum dr negara tropis yg gak pernah liat salju -.-). i hope so. my mom promised me, we'll go to New Mexico this coming January :D
let's rejoice for what God had given and will give and giving to us.

probably this winter break i'll posting often, since nothing that i could do but 'work' on computer. i passed all wonderful days without write them somewhere even not a paper :( i should write them. all wonderful days that i have had, that i'm gonna have, that im having now. wonderful days that God gives to us. Let's rejoice for what God had given and will give and giving to us.

Be grateful.

--Risni

Kamis, 23 Desember 2010

winter break-- time to tell you the truth

when i wrote this, i was, still, didnt know who i was.

ALONE. make me feel like i'm useless. nobody want to hang out with me, nobody want to even call my name. haha i'm desperate.

i love winter breaks where i can wake up late, wasting time on computer, watch movies, hang out with friends, reading books, and many more just doing fun things. Does it happen every time, everyday, frequently or what? as a matter of fact, not really. I'm not really doing great job here, as an exchange student, as an Indonesian exchange student, as a Moeslem-Indonesian exchange student, i am, still, feeling the same even worse.

i feel i just wanna go home nowadays. i love Indonesia better. I love my friends there, my family, my everything. i just love them. It's because winter breaks, i spend my time mostly alone.

when im alone, i feel i dont have anybody to talk to, to share with, to do something with, nobody. well, i could call my friends here (though i said i'm not doing great job as exchange student, but im making friends lol), but it just different. i know i have friends, im being more introvert during my year here. i have my lovely friends, great friends who want to accept me as what i look like. they dont care where i come from, they dont care what religion i am, they dont care what i'm putting on. they are not a lot (i told you im being introvert here) but i love them.

the things are,
i love them but it's not as much as i love my friends in Indonesia, feeling awkward still haunt me~ though i know they are just so nice.
they are different. they have their own culture. american cultures that are not so me. My best (close) frinds here are not real-americans. At least it makes me engage them easier than real americans who just NOT so me. they still american though. but i know that's wrong. open minded is completely required.

but look hey. i hate to be compared to anybody else. indirectly, many people start to compare me with other exchange students who are doing great (i admit).

im still cannot open my mind to accept different things here. i'm not from big city, im not that kind of girl who like to be like "that girls" (i hope u understand) i am me, i am myself. please dont blame me people !

i'm trying, i know i failed.
im lazy to keep moving forward and im tired.
i used to do things with many friends! but i have my best friends. i love to be extrovert, like butterflies. doing something back and forth, to and fro, a social person, helping each other, in a BIG family.
now im feeling alone.

n i completely hate being alone. im too dependent. i know.

but other time. I just so thankful to get here. Im happy when i do things with friends. when go to movie theater, shopping, playing, chatting, just being around them, a lovely time with them. consciously, i dont wanna go home, even i dream about to live here.

human never be satisfy.
i've no idea how much i miss Indonesia now, but i've no idea how much im gonna miss everything in US, later.

but still, when i wrote this, i was alone. i wanted to go home.

Rabu, 22 Desember 2010

i can't help, i hate being 18.

look, world is full of different things! (open minded is necessarily required)

i dont know what to say, but i'm getting suck now, i'm 18 but i feel like i do nothing. do you know what teenagers used to act when they have no idea who they are? they're wasting their time, uhh it's me now.
am i a teenager now? not really, i mean i'm 18! i'm eligible to drive, so what? idk.
(see, i'm getting unorganize to do things even writing)
my life has no good progress, at least what im feeling, idk what people think and for now i dont care though.
i learned psychology during my semester here, i know some "what is it called" that happens to me.
1. ID moratorium. this is the identity that teens usually experience. they're asking questions bout everything they dont understand exactly, they have no commitment yet, and they feel suck like me, life is just so complicated.
2. ID foreclosure. im honestly say here what happens to me as well. sometimes i do follow everything people like to and i think those people are my "leader", my "god". my "everything" n then i follow them without asking as i think they're right! they're cool! oh whataver. im being completely follower.
3. Compensation defense and Reaction Formation defense. Often, i see many people are a way superior than me, clever, smarter, rich, talented, just a way different with me. then im feeling envy, instead of being angry to them, im compliment them. then i make 'compensation' by saying "okay, i dont have that, but i have this,". BUT not really for right now. im seeing too many. too many people are really really superior. i just admire them and envy them. im sort of have a stiff smile admiring and hoping i could be just like them.
4. dominance, deference, and succorance in the same life time but different situation. do i have a double personality?? yes i do. that's what i think..and feel that bring me up to feel pleasure, but other time bring me down to feel so dependent and shy and shy and shy. Tumbling on the sand with a pillow cover my face attempt to put it on my butt. what a world that bring me in this images. i cant control my self to act not like an 18 girl or.. women.

i dont have principes, commintment to my life. idk what im suppose to do. 18 is too adult for me to do something what kids do and i do what kids do anyways. so, do you know what are you going to do when you turn 18?

it seems so exessive for most of u, i bet it does. but.. look. you dont know what i feel.

Kamis, 14 Oktober 2010

go go

halooo
after a long time, i come back to write something.
okay, i'm already spend more than 6 weeks in school, AND definitely i change my mind bout CLASSES (previous posting). I'm getting bored in some points, honest. Well, not really for guitar now, we're learning chord now (after 6 weeks), lil bit more fun than before. US history, i thought i couldn't make it, but in fact i can, at least i make good progress :D and i love this class now ;). Theater? aaaaa BORING -.-" i do mistake, i should not choose theater reguler, i just knew that theater reguler (that i belong now) will NEVER perform :( and we just do boring stuff, games (actually fun but not if you can't 'touch' everybody), lil acting learning, theater vocabularies and do nothing. Algebra, i hate to say this, but i love it because it's easy but i hate it because so many works. the teacher is unique tho, and nice. Psychology..oooh I lOVE it, IF i understand all the stuffs. but i think i can make it, just try to trust myself. anw, i did a lot of mistakes in psychology test today, suck, ya.
what else..mm English, so so. but ya, quite much works. Japanese, idk but i feel after days passed, it starts to less humorous. maybe bcz the lesson getting harder, ya it's true, so we're going to spend time for learning seriously than before.

yaa those are them..
i'm thinking of trying find really FUN stuff in school, i miss doing something after school..i mean ..u know, not going straight home. but again, a lot of works to do. i'm too tired to do many things while homeworks haunt me lalalala. but i'll start to search new things tho, yaaa probably (or definitely) i just have a year (11 month actually) here, let me speak up, do FUN and Interesting thing! i know it will be so hard, challenging, and i'm not kinda person who like challenge, frankly :( but everybody have to dare facing challange, life is challange.

speak up Risni! do something.

Minggu, 26 September 2010

haiii

it has been so looong since my last posting. yaa i'm lazy to write in this current time. many things i wanna tell yall but homeworks and laziness kill me.

Selasa, 07 September 2010

CLASSES! :D

*Guitar

ehem. belajar gitar sudah menjadi ambisi gue sejak SMA. klo gue jalan sama nita terus ada bunyi genjreng, nita pasti langsung teriak "Risni, gitar!" haha. dan disini ada someone yg menyarankan gue buat ikut kelas gitar, gue noded. first meeting, gue seneng bgt..gurunya baiik, kenalan pertama gue bahkan berasal dr kelas ini. tapi..setelah berhari2, gue mulai bosan krn ajarannya tidak sesuai yg gue harapkan. gue pgnnya lgsg diajarin kunci gitar gitu abcdefg trs bermusik2 ria brg2 yg lain. Ternyata gue terlalu ambisi deh, dimana2 kalo belajar pasti dr nol lha haha. alhasil ya pertama belajar history gitar..trs baca nada di ledger line, cara memegang gitar yg benar, bljar nada di string pertama dulu, pokonya yg bener2 dr awaaaal. trs si gurunya teh benar2 mengkordinir muridnya apalgi yg gabisa. jd sementara si guru ngajarin yg lain, gue pasti megang gitar dengan siku di waist gitar kepalan tangan di dagu sambil pasang muka ngantuk. pas di tes kunci G n B, berantakan. uda gue salah cara metiknya, temponya acak adut lagi haha. pelajarn pertama: sebosan apapun anda, hal kecil akan berdampak besar.


*US History

kelas yg buat gue down. sebelah gue cewek yg super jenius yg selalu angkat tangan ketika ditanya, sebelah gue cowok yg sama kayak tuh cewek, belakang gue cowok yg selalu bertanya kritis. depan gue cowok student exchange dr jerman, ramah bgt ni anak, senyum mulu, ganteng lagi *lho*. awalnya gue agak lega ada tmn student ex, setidaknya 'mungkin' b.inggris dia juga 11-12 ama gue. taunya, b.inggris dia super lancar, dan super jenius pula krn dia bisa menjawab pertanyaan2 yg diajukan guru zzz. kelas ini aktif bgt, banyak angkat tangannya, sedangkan gue selalu mgernyitkan dahi tanda tak mengerti, gue sempet angkat tangan soal menunjuk state di peta (cuma ini yg menurut gue gampang-di sekeliling kelas kan ada peta US haha-). Gue org yg paling sering ke meja guru, ehem bukan buat bertanya tapi buat minta print out materi. PR US hitory selalu ada setiap hari dan sungguh melelahkan. setiap gue ngumpulin PR, pasti si guru bilang "o very good" sambil senyum lebar as if gue org yg plg gak ngerti di kelas.


*Theater Art

dari kelas US history ke kelas in memakan waktu yg cukup panjang krn jauh, gue selalu lari tiap ke kelas ini takut kena tardy zzz. but it is the amazing class dan menyenangkan. orang2nya ramah semua :) *gak semua sih tp byk yg ramah* sama halnya kayak di kelas Gitar, kelas ini pun benar2 mengajarkan dari awaaaalll dan diulang2. tapi ttp menyenangkan walopun anak2nya super ribut yg buat guru theater marah mulu -.- disuru "no gum" masih ada aja yg gak nurut.


*Algebra


Gurunya UNIK sumpah deh. Ramah tapi strict. Lucu juga. pokonya asik walopun galak. pokonya unik deh haha. pelajaran algebra di sini bener2 dihayati. kita dikasi konsep dulu dan si gurunya teh kasi example pake robot2an, pensil boneka, ato mainan lainnya gitu deh yg bikin ketawa. hal lain yg bikin gue seneng adalah disini gue gak mesti denger b.inggris byk2, tinggal liat board/buku trs ngerjain soal :D


*Psychology

haaaaaaaaa. pusing dah ni kelas. SUPER AKTIF anak2nya. down abis gue disini. mereka ngomong apa aja gue ga ngerti, plg ngerti dikit2. suka bingung sendiri klo dikasi tugas sama gurunya, cepet bgt ngemengnya -.-" PRnya juga lumayan susah zzz. tapi gue yakin, klo gue ngerti aja, pasti ni kelas asik bgt! di kelas ini rata2 senior, gue keliatan bgt kecilnya kalo di kelas ini. hm.


*English

ini kelas yg paling aneh -.-" anak2nya bandel2 deh. ada cewek yg tidur mulu, disuru angkat kepala, angkat sedetik trs dia gak peduli lagi, disuru angkat lagi, sedetik, tidur2an lagi zzz bikin kesel dah ni org. ada satu cowok yg super ngelunjak, disuru ngerjain tugas dia gak ngerjain, pokonya kata2nya gak sopan deh. tapi ada satu cowok yg gue suka haha. anaknya rajin tapi selengean juga sih, suka tidur di kelas, tp dia bakal tidur klo tugas2 yg dikerjain uda selesai, anaknya sigap :D klo dibangunin ya dia bangun. ganteng loohh haha. tapi sayangnya dia pindah kelas zzzz. Gurunya paling strict. tapi wajar sih, anak2nya kayak gitu.


*Japanese

aaaa! the most amazing class!! rata2 anak2 disini freshman, gue jadi berasa same size *0* setidaknya size gue sama mereka gak jauh beda :p. anak2nya lucu2...pikiran mereka masih kayak anak kecil *sok dewasa gue*, jd main2 gitu ketawa2 dll pokonya asik. anak2nya juga ramah :D ini kenapa gue jd nyambungnya ama anak freshman coba? -.- gurunya juga humoris. pokonya tiap hari gak mungkin deh gada hal yg buat ketawa hebat :D yg bikin gak asik, klo ngasi PR pasti lewat website, jd kan serada males juga gitu.

Selasa, 31 Agustus 2010

SCHOOL!

waw. udah lewat berapa hari i don't post anything. it's because HOMEWORK!
first week school. here i share u.

mood gue mixing. mix. mix. mix. ya stress lha, seneng, sedih, surprise, shock, dll. EVERYTHINGs ARE DIFFERENT. Mulai dari GEDUNGNYA, ORANG-ORANGnya, SISTEM PENDIDIKANNYA, dll. The school is FAR BIGGER than sekolah gue (SMANSA-red) di Indonesia. Smansa palingan 3 gym disini. hmm.

Bellaire High School (BHS). Sekolah ini terdiri dr kurang lebih 2500 HS student, and i'm a junior here. First day, mixing mood too. Gue nyasar? YAP EXACTLY. Gue telat? Not really. Here all classes that i planed to in:
1. Guitar
2. US. History
3. Theater Art
4. Algebra
5. Phycology
6. English Literature
7. Japanese

dan apa yg terjadi? when advocacy time, gue dpt schedule dg 3rd period FASHION DESIGN! gila deh gue... dan gue observed it during 3 days! God sake, it was NOT A ME, right? lol

eventually, gue changed the schedule into theater art now.

2nd day school. Gue nyasar? SANGAT. Gue telat? YAP! Gue gabisa menemukan English Class and Japanese. God, it was really terrible krn gue sampe nangis waktu itu *cengeng bgt dah* Gue nanya ke org2 sampe akhirnya gue nanya ke security dan gue dapet peta sekolah *grin. Lalu, setelah dpt peta, apakah gue menemukan kelasnya? Unfortunately, NO. Gue masih nyasar sampe bunyi bel. Untung, 3 hari advocacy belum kena Tardy (sistem telat disini).Well, utk hari2 berikutnya. gue semakin hafal kelas gue dimana hehe.

Gue suka sistem pendidikannya. Mereka bener2 teratur. Segalanya diawali dengan mengantri jadi walaupun banyak student, tetap tertib. Kalo mw ke toilet, kita mesti punya board pass dan di tiap kelas cuma ada satu board pass dan gue suka itu. jadi gada tuh yg namanya MABAL di sini.

BHS pake sistem setiap hari punya 7 period dengan kelas yang sama. it means, ketika lo dikasi PR, besoknya mau gamau lo harus selesaikan PR itu, DAN setiap hari pasti ada PR. Suck but let's enjoy it.

Gue punya big trouble di US History and Psychology. SEANDAINYA gue ngerti BAHASA INGGRIS dg baik, gue yakin kedua pelajaran itu bakal gue masukin ke list FAVORITE CLASSES. Karena gurunya asik! Sebenernya semua gurunya asik sih. Profesional semua, seneng deh hehe. Cuma ya itu, bahasa bahasa bahasa, i hope i can understand it clearly soon.

What else? hey, Friends! hb that?
Gue bersyukur. sangat bersyukur God sent me someone. Gue ga perlu sebut namanya, but she's really wonderful girl. Gue appreciate setinggi2nya buat pleasure dia! Gak kebayang deh, kalo gada dia gue di BHS kayak apa. Fyi, honestly..making friends itu bener2 the hardest thing, i think.
Pertama, KECIL kemungkinan lo making friends di kelas karena mereka moving class, bel bunyi...gak peduli guru masi ngomong, test belum selesai, atau apapun itu ya lo cabut ke kelas selanjutnya. Lo mw ngobrol kapan? pas pelajaran? kena WHOP juga deh dr guru -.-"
Kedua, uda gue bilang BHS itu besar. Kalo lo kenal 20-50 org di sekola, lo masih tetap merasa 'sendiri' karena lo bakal jarang ketemu mereka kecuali lo make appointment.
Ketiga, during lucnh time semua org berkelompok makan brg. Pertanyaannya? lo mw ngapain? makan sendiri? selamanya? atau mw gabung sm kelompok lain? cara gabungnya gmn? distract mrk dg bilang "may i join u all?" God sake, never do that.
Keempat, Personally. Gue ASIAN, gue PENDEK dan KECIL, gue ...well, pake HIJAB (kerudung-red). Walaupun BHS penuh dg International students (lo bisa menemukan berbagai etnis dan negara di sini) tetep aja gue kecil untuk ukuran junior dan gue BEDA krn gue punya hijab. feel overwhelm? YES.
Kelima, walaupun gue beda, tapi karena banyaknya Int. students dan banyaknya org di sini, lo sedikit dipedulikan, so JARANG tuh yg nanya gue 'where do you come from?'. yah, karena mereka gak peduli tiap org yg beda etnis/negara. toh banyak.

Maka dari itu, gue sangat bersyukur gue dipertemukan dengan gadis yang mw bantu gue di sini. Thanks God.
Well, di tiap kelas gue punya kenalan. cuma kenalan. kenalan= ketika lo ketemu lo say hi, lo ngobrol cuma lo emg bener2 butuh dia bukan karena lo pgn basa-basi.
Cari kenalan gampang. Cari temen? no comment.

Yap, gue baru mulai first meeting club gue hari ini. satu2nya cara yg bisa gue andalkan saat ini adalah joining club. ada cara lain: cari study body. trs uda gue lakukan? UDAH. gue asked teacher untuk kasih gue study body. apa yg terjadi? dia bilang "i haven't, if u need help on ur lesson, just email me" ok. i'll do that. so study body wasn't work here. I really put my big hope on CLUBS. seriously.

and hopefully for theater art class. karena biasanya mereka punya show performance.
probably we'll be closer. i hope.

cerita lain adalah soal locker. ini silly bgt. karena 3x gue minta tolong ke org buat bukain locker gue krn gue lupa cara buka locknya haha. sumpah ini konyol abis. but at last, i can do it by myself.

well, banyak yg pgn gue tumpahkan. tapi nanti aja deh.
anyway, this weekend gue bakal ke Oklahoma City! yeiy. I love weekend. really.

Jumat, 20 Agustus 2010

meet grang grand @ Sugar Land!!

ayayayayai
kemarin gue diajakin dinner brg grand grand (my grandma here)loooh. AND it just GREAT! rumah grand2 ada di kota lain, di Sugar Land. Berhubung hostmom gue hr ini akan ke bandara so 3 anjing imut2 di rumah dititipkan kpd grand2. Pas gue masuk ke rumahnya, WOW! banyak anjing -.-". sumpah deh, klo seandainya tuh anjing gak di cage gue uda ngabur setengah mati, pingsan malah. serius deh. klo banyak tapi imut sih oke2 aja, ya ini uda banyak besar2 pisaaan..kayak anjing polisi gitu. Kalo gue di host di sono, pertama kali gue menginjakan kaki gue uda lgsg minta pindah deh hehe

Tapi grand2 is AWESOME. Super baik! >.< 11-12 deh sm hostmomkku. Jd kenapa di rumah beliau banyak anjing? Karena beliau adalah seorang dog trainer, wew... kalo di Indonesia, seumuran beliau gak mungkin melakukan pekerjaan itu. yakin deh. Sampai sana, hostmom ada keperluan sedikit sm grand2 so gue duduk termenung sendiri di ruang TV, di tengah2 kandang2 anjing dengan barkingnya yg gak nahan...glek. Gue menghayal, pas gue lagi duduk tiba2 kandangnya kebuka semua terus pada menuju ke arah gue, mengginggit, mencakar, sampai gue mati di tempat. naudzubillah. *lebay yah he

setelah urusan selesai. kita b3 pun cao ke tempat dinner. oya sebelum ke dining place kita pergi ke mall buat beli pajamasnya hostmom, dan terjadi insiden ini lagi. gue ditanyain sm grand2 uda pernah naik eskalator ato belum. zzzzz. hahaha. oke lanjut, kita dinner tepatnya di Fish Grill. DAN itu lah makanan yg gue cari2 selama di sini, yg bisa bikin gue makan banyak dan kenyang haha! Biasanya tiap dinner (dr thai food ampe pizza) gue cuma makan seberapa doang, tapi kali ini beda..krn gue suka makanannya ya gue makan banyak (walopun gak sampe abis karena porsinya byk bgt cuy), sampe hostmom gue aja surprise ngeliat gue bisa makan sebanyak itu xD

then, we came back home ke rumah grand2. Hostmom gue nge-pee pee 3 anjingnya dulu dan grand2 melepas satu anjing yg cukup besar dan tdk berbulu dr cagenya buat pee juga. Gue langsung sigap haha. dan ternyata benar sesuai perkiraan. Anjing itu loncat ke gue!! Bolak balik ga jelas, tapi gue gabs teriak *saking paniknya. Fortunately grand2 langsung ambil alih dan anjing itu pun keluar huft.

Semenjak insiden itu gue jd bersyukur berat di rumah gue yg sekarang cuma ada 3 anjing kecil dan gue merasa rasa takut gue sm 3 anjing imut itu hilang seketika hehe.

sekarang sendiri di rumah yg benar2 sendiri krn gada chili, chiko, and rhili :'(
ada mereka ketakutan, gada mereka gue kesepian zzz -.-"

Rabu, 18 Agustus 2010

Chores

Hai hai ketemu lagi :D

gue pgn ceritain chores yg gue lakuin disini dan sebenernya ehm hal ini gak gue lakuin di rumah (indonesia). btw gue potong rambut lho jadi pendek bgt krn stres haha! dan ketika gue dtg ke salonnya, di tempat duduk gue dikasi tambahan dudukan buat anak kecil gitu karena gue pendek haha *ga penting

actually, gada specific chores yg hostmom gue suruh ke gue. She only said kalo gue mesti make my room and bathroom tidy n clean. selesai. washing clothes juga deng.
gue uda pernah bilang di entry sebelumnya kalo ketika gue take a shower, gue lama di cleaning bathroomnya instead of shower'y lol. Indonesia gak pake sistem toilet kering (terutama di rumah penduduknya)so gue gak biasa dong gak doing bidets hehe *ga penting lagi. Well, hal2 yang gue lakuin setelah mandi adalah membersihkan tempat gue shower pakai handuk sampai benar2 kering, dari mulau pintu kacanya, dindingnya, shower, dan kerannya. Habis itu, gue ambil cairan pembersih shower dan menyemprotkannya ke dinding randomly dan mengeringkannya lagi pake handuk. Setelah itu gue cuci muka kan tuh di wastafel+wudhu, otomatis sisi2 wastafelnya basah, dan itu juga mesti gue keringkan pakai handuk. Belum kalo cerminnya kecipratan air, mesti gue keringkan juga haha. Then, 3 handuk yang gue pakai untuk melakukan hal2 tersebut mesti gue gantungkan dengan rapi baru kemudian gue bisa keluar dari kamar mandi. :D

yang kedua. keep my room tidy. hal ini honestly i say kalo kamar gue gak rapi. walopun hostmom gue dah menyediakan smcam container utk putting small stuffs, gue prefer menyimpang brg2 gue randomly di atas meja belajar. Jadi gak enak dilihat -.-
Kerudung yang gue pake pun cenderung gue gantungkan di kursi bukan di lemari, biar simple. Fyi, walopun gue tinggal cuma sama hostmom, di rumah gue tetep harus pake kerudung karena 3 anjing imut di rumah gue recognize gue hanya jika gue pake kerudung, kalo kagak, gue dibarking mulu sama mereka. Jadi biar ngambilnya simpel ya gue gantungkan di tempat yg mudah dijangkau.

yang ketiga. washing clothes. yang ini lumayan konyol. gue berasa aneh ketika ditanya "How's the way u wash ur clothes?" krn hostmom consider org2 Indonesia mencuci baju pakai tangan di atas pijakan bergerigi. LOL. emang bener sih tapi di Indonesia juga kan ada washing machine -.- apakah karena muka gue yg gak beraura 'teknologi' ya hehe. Soal yang satu ini, washing machine disini memang lebih canggih drpd di rumah gue. Gue gak perlu ironing lagi ketika drying. sip lah. KIS :D

demikianlah 3 chores yang gue lakukan. selebihnya hostmom gue yg ngerjain, mulai dari washing dishes sampe preparing dinner. Gue bantu sih tapi gak bantu masak cuma nyiapin piring sendok sama napkin haha.

oya, fyi lagi. selain considering gada washing machine, demikian juga oven dan tempat makan mcm KFC dkk'y. Ketika gue ditanya pernah makan pizza atau nggak, dan gue jawab pernah, ekspresinya terlihat surprise hehe. Muka gue emang gak ada aura modernnya sih :p

But i really love my mom. Sikapnya bener2 mirip sama umi. hmmm. I don't want lost her, walopun dia cuma welcome family tapi gue prefer gamau pindah dari sini, walopun sejujurnya gue butuh siblings tapi gue takut ketika gue pindah gue gak menemukan sosok Ibu seperti dia :'(

Selasa, 17 Agustus 2010

17 AGUSTUS

H A P P Y
I N D E P E N D E N C E
D A Y


I MISS U SO MUCH TANAH AIRKU :D

semoga pendidikannya,ekonominya,teknologinya dan semuanya makin maju!

Realizing

hmm gue diajak ke gereja dan sebuah panti di Bellaire.
awalnya gue sangsi soal hospitalitynya americans. tapi ketika gue masuk gereja, dan hostmom memperkenalkan gue ke org2 di sana. gue mengucap syukur yg daaalllaaamm bgt, mereka semua welcome, dan dari situ gue bisa making friends bukan sama tmn2 hostmom aja tapi sama anak SMA di sono :p hostmom gue bukan ngenalin gue mcm "hi, this is Risni" aja.. tapi ketika salah satu sesi rutin gereja...hostmom gue berdiri di tengah sesi dan memperkenalkan gue ke semua org yg disana untk bisa welcoming me di Bellaire ini. gue seneng bgt hiks

hmm selain itu i realize something.
saat gue di gereja, gue menyadari satu sisi kurangnya umat muslim dalam bertindak. para kristiani benar2 teratur (gue emg gak tau sih kristiani di Indo kayak apa cuma gue salut dengan segalanya yg gue liat di gereja saat itu disini. mereka punya jadwal ibadah setiap hari minggu, gereja itu bersih, dan gue memperhatikan persoalan politik di gereja. walopun gue gak terlalu ngerti apa yg mereka omongin, cuma gue liat bgt tuh kesadarn mereka besar bgt. mereka lagi dalam proses mission ke Haiti utk bantu korban2 di sana. dan lagi, mereka teratur dalam proses ini.
btw, gue serada sedih sih. hostmom gue minggu ini bakal ke Haiti dan gue tinggal sama liaison hmm wish me luck deh *berasa adaptasi dr awal lagi dan itu hari pertama gue sekolaaa aaaa

abis dari gereja, gue diajak ke salah satu lembaga sosial yang menangani org2 lanjut usia dan keterbelakangan mental. hhhhhhh sedih bgt tapi juga seneng ngeliatnya. yg buat gue sedih gue inget org2 seperti itu di Indonesia yg byk bgt gak kerawat, sedangkan gue lihat disni mereka bener2 punya perawatan khusus, gue salut dan gue mempertanyakan kapan Indonesia bisa seperti itu. emang sih teknologi mereka mantap dan jelas terbantu bgt utk urusan soal itu. tapi gue juga yakin, kalo SDM indonesia mantap bisa tuh ngalahin teknologi canggih. *sok iye gue -.-"

pokonya minggu awal di sini gue byk belajar sesuatu. khususnya soal keteraturan.
asal tau aja ya, gue kalo mandi bukan lama mandinya tapi ngebersihan kamar mandinya haha. membersihkan kamar mandi merupakan kewajiban setiap anggota rumah setiap kali habis mandi hmm *pantes kamar mandi di sini bersih2 -.-"

Jumat, 13 Agustus 2010

first day

well, maaf untuk menulis blog ini dalam bahasa. karena gue lagi stress jadi klo pake b.inggris kayaknya susah untuk berekspresi.haha

gue nulis first (second) entry ini random ya.hoho

yap. sekarang gue dah nyampe di Texas, tepatnya Kota Bellaire...letaknya di tengah2 Houston. First day gue di Texas itu 2 hr yg lalu, 11 Agustus 2010. Gue tiba di Houston dengan sambutan ramah dari liaisonku tercinta :) and i'm directly dibawa ke rumahnya.

Sampe rumah, gue lgsg ketakutan karena ada anjing disana haha
tapi ya akhirnya berjalan dg biasa walopun gue sempet nangis krn homesick (cpt homesick amat ya gue -.-)

hmm. oke, di sini gue melakukan hal yang gak biasa gue lakukan di rumah dan gak gue temukan di rumah.

besoknya gue orientasi chapter di rumah salah satu volunteer AFS. brg dg negara lainnya....dr New Zealand, Norwegia, Jepang, Thailand, Brazil, Jerman. dan kita para Asian menyadari bahwa kita jauh lebih pendek dan kecil dr mereka haha. Oya, sebelumnya gue orie internasional di DC dg negara India, Thailand, Egypt, Turki, Kenya, Arab Saudi. actually, gue pgn cerita byk soal orie ini tapi lagi males typing -.-
back to orie chapter. orientasi berjalan lancar..dan kita diajak jln2 keliling Houston. and it was AWESOME. yang paling bikin gue terperangah ketika kita dibawa ke lantai 50 sebuah gedung dan melihat keindahan kota Houston dari atas. WOW! I like it so much! Selebihnya kita liat2 tempat kayak salah satu sungai di sana, hardrock, texas culture store, park, and kita sempet nemu 2 org lagi parkour gitu haha
oya, gue inget komentar tmn gue yg dari new zealand. terjadi percakapan seperti ini:
A: hey Risni, do you want this chocolate? take this.
Gue: no thx. i'm fasting
A: ou you fasting. hm well. do you want to drink?
Gue:mm..actually i can't eat and drink anything.
A: WHAT??
Gue: yap. i'm fasting during 30 days. i just can eat and drink at night.
A: WHAT TIME?
Gue: 8 pm
A: GOD, really? it's funny! why u do that to yourself??!
demikianlah sekilas percakapan itu. kalo inget ekspresi dia gue jadi senyum2 sendiri hehe. dari situ akhirnya gue ma dia jadi ngomongin soal agama.hmm.

well, sorenya masing2 dr kita dijemput hostfam. and here i am now in texas! di rumah tercinta bersama hostmom tercinta dan bersama chili,chiko,riley, and smudge tercinta :)

hostmom gue took me ke grocery store and such store yg sekiranya gue butuh sesuatu utk dibeli, yap she's very nice mom. then beliau ngajak dinner di Thai Foods. oya...hostmom gue juga punya nasi di rumah. betapa senangnya gue T.T

byk hal2 yg buat gue surprise di sini. byk bgt.
salah satunya adalah ketika gue ke sekolah u/ pertama kalinya! (cuma untuk daftar)
kita dtg in time. blm ada org. alhasil kita dpt first line buat daftar. gue gatau ternyata ada tes b.inggris buat pelajar internasional dan hmm sebenernya tuh tes gampang bgt! gue yakin klo tesnya bukan oral dan gue baca gue bisa ngerjain semua itu! bukannya sombong tapi ini serius deh, tes oral ini dibawain sama imigran gitu kyknya dari India dan gue gak bisa nangkep b.inggrisnya...aksennya beda -.-
jadinya gue byk yg nol deh T.T dan gue mesti ikut tes tertulis hari senin nanti zzz

gue serada minder pas ngeliat students disana yang hmm..tinggi, besar, bule aaaaaa rasanya ingin kabur saat itu juga. gue disangka kelas 9 pula zzz. well then gue merasa situasi yang beda. bukan krn gue punya loker di sini tapi di indo nggak, dan bukan juga krn sistem sekolahnya yg beda. tapi krn org2 yg emg beda! apalagi waktu gue masuk cafetaria'y............hhhhhhhhhhhhh rasanya kayak SENDIRI bgt di tengah org2 mengobrol dan badan saya..kecil.

kelas wajib English and American History. dan gue ambil 6 kls pilihan termasuk drama dan gitar!! haha. gue gak pernah nyangka kalo gue bakal ambil kelas ini. tapi emg uda obsesi gue pingin bisa gitar...so here my start line. hb drama? gue rasa ini seru, jd gue ikut he
well sekolah bakal dimulai tgl 23. hmm. gue nervous. sangat.

ok. mungkin sampe sini dulu deh. wish me luck.

--RISNI :)

T E X A S

Here I am!