grade-oriented

kenapa sekolah itu bikin stress?
kenapa waktu gue di US (dan disini juga sih), gue benci banget sama PR yg banyak tp tetep gue kerjain?
waktu kelas X n XI, gue OSIS hampir tiap hari pulang sore atau malam -sangat menguras waktu-, debat sering latihan kalau ada lomba-cukup menguras waktu-, gue jarang bgt belajar tapi nilai gue termasuk gak jelek (bukan sombong, tp fakta he), dan gue senang menghadapi masa 2 tahun SMA gue, byk bgt hura-huranya, apalagi kelas 2. sekarang gue gada OSIS, debat udahan, tiap sekolah lgsg pulang, (nilai belum begitu keliahatan sih) tp bawaannya stress muluuuuu, gabisa hura-hura,kenapa???

gue tau kenapa!
karena semenjak habis lebaran, gue berubah jadi power rangeeerr!! *jiirrr jayus sumpah* semenjak habis lebaran, gue berubah menjadi org yg full-grade-oriented. kelas X, XI i could still get average-grades cz i enjoyed my highs school, i wasnt that grade-oriented person. now?

dulu, PR banyak tetap gue kerjain karena gue merasa PR itu kewajiban, gatau kenapa, udah dr SD bawaannya kalo gak ngerjain PR gak enak hati *cie elah* tapi sekali lagi, itu gue nikmatin! sekarang kelas 12? karena orientasi gue nilai nilai nilai nilai nilai dan nilai, gue jadi stress, nilai di bawah tmn2 sekelas kayaknya no hope in the future gitu, PR (apalagi PR kesenian) gue BENCI SETENGAH MATI, gue ngerjain PR sekarang2 ini semata2 ngejar nilai. and that is no good.

gue selalu inget kt2 tmn SMP gue, "Belajar itu buat tahu, bukan buat lulus". jujur, kata2 itu yg buat gue makin komitmen untuk gak nyontek di kala ulangan, dan gue senang bgt alhamdulillah dr SD sampai sekarang gue takut nyontek hahaha. anyway, permasalahannya bukan soal menyontek, tapi lebih kepada kata tahu atau lulus , kata ilmubermanfaat atau nilaibagus .

gue pingin banget bilang ke diri gue sendiri "Ris, kalo lo sekolah cuma buat ngejar nilai ngapain lo sekolah? bayar aja guru lo biar dpt nilai 100 semua, capek2 ngejar nilai, ilmu ga masuk. well yeah, kalo lo ngejar nilai doang, cenderung ilmu yg udah lo hafal ilang seketika"

sebenernya waktu gue di US, gue udah grade-oriented juga, abisnya guru2 gue sama hostmom gue muji2 nilai bagus gue mulu jadi kan mau gamau gue mesti jaga citra juga sampai akhir hahaha. ini rapot gue selama setahun disana:




BAGUS KAN?? HAHAHA

well, kalau kalian berada di posisi gue, you would get those great grades as well, karena emang itu bukan soal buat "org2 indonesia" :p hehe (gue ambil kelas mudah lagi hahaha)

so, what did i feel after i get that report?
gue bangga. gue merasa menjadi well-educated-indonesian.
now, what am i feeling?
miserable. why?
1st. the questions werent that hard, im sure most indonesians can get what i got
2nd. its only grades, you should ask yourself, did u get something really really new and try something challenge? or did u just repeat something over? like algebra???
3rd. i believe i wont get that kind of grades here, on my senior year. too bad.

suck.
tuh kan, grade-oriented kan gue???

i wanna change my paradigm.
i want to believe, school is not about grades only, school is about everything, mainly social life :)

i read this triangle diagram about college life from my friend's DP @ bbm. It says about sociallife-enoughsleep-goodgrades, the diagram says, in college you can only choose two. i dont wanna choose two, I WILL CHOOSE THREE. all of them, i gotta do that, i'll get goodgrades, lots of friends, and good health. i have to.

and i gotta do that now, like rite now, in my high school year as well.
cz school is not about grades only, it is about everything.