People have their own lifes. Different each others.
Life. Thing that is so common people talk about. From time to time, from Jamestown until Levittown, from World War One until Vietnam War, from Dust Bowl until Tsunami Hit Japan, whatsoever. Before and after all of those, Life still and always exist.
They need sacrifices. I think this one is different.
Period to period, the form of sacrifices is changing. Eons ago, people might used other people to be sacrificed supposely for villagers better life. To ask God, hey God, we sent you a beuatiful woman, please receive our sacrifice, please. IF we can do it in this period -which we could- we are primitive. Yeah, everybody knows it.
Now, let us think.
What does sacrifice mean? What is it for? And does it have something to do with Life? no doubt. We do know this kind of thing. We have known it.
Why is it so hard to sacrifice? Why people once were real easy to kill human for better life while humans today even can't let 5 bucks 'fly' to a hobo for better life? or homeless people? or orphans?
no, my point is not that.
Why is it hard to sacrifice our stubborness and our jealousy, for better life? I suppose that every humankind has all happiness, we just sharing to another people. One is smart-er; one is pretty-er; one is rich-er; one is religious-er; one is lucky-er; one is more*(smart, pretty, rich, lucky, and religious). There's no one stupid, i guess. So mmm, maybe we were smart, but our friend is smarter, so we look stupid?
Why is it easy to be jealous? Not everyone undergoes it. But I do. Im jealous to everyone who can resist theirselves toward jealousy, who can defend from sword without shield, who can survive in a thick snow without furycoat, who can stand on their own feet, who can climb mountain without rope, who can do everything that other can't do, who have everything that other people don't.
Why is it easy to wear a mask? im expert to wear a good mask but smile. It's hard to make a fake smile. seriously. if i dont like people, i'd rather not smiling to them than make a fake smile. But it's easy to say, "Oh it's okay" eventhough it's not okay. Why feeling bad is like haunt me.. why it's hard to slap people, like literally slap them! Instead, i just 'petting' them.
Why is it so hard to leave homeworks? To not doing that? (im serious) Why is it so hard to not study for tests? I think i know for this questions. Cz i wanna be smart as other people are. I wanna get compliment as other people do. I dont wanna be weak, i dont wanna left behind. That's not good. I believe it's not.
I really wanna sacrifice my jealousy and my feeling-bad-so-people-can-accept-me temper. Go away. Just fall down the cliff. Go..
God, please receive my sacrifice, i dont mean to give my bad tempers to you, i just ask you to throw it away, please -,-
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