Chocolate Makes You Smarter

i got something today, that "NO MATTER HOW INTERESTING THE LESSONS ARE, HOW FUN THE TEACHERS ARE, HOW "TEMPTING" OUR CLASSMATES ARE (HAHA), AS TIME GOES BY, STUDY IS STILL STUDY--> MEANS STUDYING IS BORING"



who says WE CAN USED TO EVERYTHING? I definitely AGAINST YOU. haha.



tell me if u know a trick how to stop yawning in class? A LOGIC ONE. haha :} <-- it's supposed as a sly smile

"New" teacher in my boring biology class

Ms. Best comes back after her "missing" for 6 weeks. i've never known her.
anyway, hear her name is pretty cool, "best", most good. ahha.

well, iam wondering for the class atmospher now. it's like 180 degrees different. they are sooooo quiet now. and clearly,obviously,literally,blah blah --lly i like it whoaaa.

they could have been quiet for the 6 weeks with ms. Bard as well. in fact, they didnt. Ms. Bard is a nice teacher though, they could have respected her.

oh well, i dont know why i like to talk about my biology class. there's something that attrack my nerve to talk about it (lebay) but yeah wonder why.

in fact, there's nothing interesting in this class but my yawning (isnt that interesting? wahaha)

oh well. u were wasting ur time if u read it xD

saya belajar satu hal

Saya belajar satu hal, bahwa bolehlah kita semangat, tapi jangan berlebihan
karena nanti semangat ke depanmu bisa saja runtuh karena kelelahan dan bosan akan semuanya

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa posisi tidak saja ditentukan dengan potensi
karena orang2 yg belum mengenalmu akan seenaknya mencontreng namamu untuk ditempatkan dimanapun
dan kau harus terima itu

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa jangan mudah percaya dan dipercaya walau kau sudah mengenal lama sebelum kau tahu sebenarnya siapa dia

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa bawahanmu tak selamanya tidak lebih berwibawa darimu
karena pola pikir tak ditentukan dengan usia dan jabatan, tapi lingkungan dan kesadaran

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa ketika main job dirimu tidak terlaksana karena kau terlalu bergantung, tak mau bekerja sendiri maka cabang-cabang yg lain akan kau kerjakan setengah2,
karena heeyy.. tugas utamamu bukanlah itu.. beban di pundakmu bukanlah itu yg terbesar...

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa dendam tak boleh . di larang . sangat dilarang dimanapun kita berada. walaupun itu hanya sekecil apapun

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa terkadang MATERI memang segalanya karena ia mengalahkan segala potensi. tapi saya tahu, segala keburukan kelak berawal dari MATERI tanpa potensi itu.

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa korupsi MEMANG TERJADI DIMANA-MANA dan semua demo bibir yg keluar tidak seperti yg diharapkan kalau kau heey masih melakukan korupsi itu juga

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa perasaan harus dibalas dengan logika jika kau tak mau terus-terusan luluh karena cinta dan kerinduan

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa keluarga adalah mereka yang mampu berbuat keluarga bukan berkata keluarga

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa kau HARUS MENGHORMATI ATASANMU, dia yang berhak mendapat hormat dari kami para bawahannya heey. sopan!

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa topeng itu memang akan terbayar.. kelak.. entah kapan..

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa kamu yng menganggap org2 disekitarmu sbg rival terkadang tak sadar bahwa org2 itu tak pernah menganggapmu apa2, maka tak usahlah bangga jika kau berhasil lolos darinya, sementara mereka biasa saja, hanya.. kau boleh bangga bahwa resolusi dan targetmu telah tercapai

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa apa yang sudah saya tulis entah kapan saya sadari bahwa jari-jari ini hanya bergerak pada alam bawah sadar saya..

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa supel itu sangat dibutuhkan

saya belajar satu hal, bahwa konfirmasi sangat dibutuhkan

saya belajar satu hal, JANGAN MAU DIANGGAP REMEH OLEH ORANG LAIN!!!

saya belajar satu hal, SEMUA MANUSIA SAMA!! SAMA!!

dan saya belajar satu hal, bahwa saya YAKIN MAMPU melakukan segalanya.

satu hal yang menjadi banyak hal ini .

Japanese contest

"dang it!"
that was the first word i exlaimed after read the posting announcement, i didnt go to final! hahaha.
I was confident, really, i thought i was gonna make it. in fact...nuuuppp.

There were 5 from my school, 3 of them went to final, and 2 didnt. including me! whahaha. well, okay. "experience". that what everyone said to me after they knew i didnt go to final. that was pretty funny. we were all in division 1, division where the beginner japanese compete. we didnt have good pronounciation. our score slightly different, that's the good thing.

the bad thing (not bad, just...make me envy...) when i saw the final from division 1 to 5, it was just so different. the division 2 people had a really good accent! (at least what i thought) and division 4.. they could understand what judges asked them. envyyyy. i really wanna be able to speak japanese like a native speaker haha. (i dont know why, my friends affect me a lot about the japanese good things, and my best friend is a japanese, so, well..u know).

alrighty. that's okay. i hope im gonna have other chances.

Thanks to Anna, Sue, Alissa, and Sensei Bolinger :)

My dreams

alrite. i said i was gonna post my dreams haha.

here we go.

#1
i just got home from US. i went to school, the school was suppose to be my HS but the building was my elemantary school. I went to classes, i met Ayu, Nadia, n Daifan. which is wierd. They even do not go to my school -.-" they were my EL n JHS friends. I cried in my dreams because people kept asking me what i've been done in US. Did i bring something useful for myself? Did i change to be a better person? I cried. I didnt know what to say. I felt i did nothing in US. I wanted to come back to US and fixed everything. That was my first dream.

#2
Next night. I just got home from US. I was at home. I cried. I cried in my dreams because people kept asking me what i've been done in US. Did i bring something useful for myself? Did i change to be a better person? I cried. I didnt know what to say. I felt i did nothing in US. I wanted to come back to US and fixed everything. That was the second night.

#3
Next. I just got home from US. I cried. I cried in my dreams because people kept asking me what i've been done in US. Did i bring something useful for myself? Did i change to be a better person? I cried. I didnt know what to say. I felt i did nothing in US. I wanted to come back to US and fixed everything. That was the third night.

#4
Next night. I just got home from US. I cried. I cried in my dreams because people kept asking me what i've been done in US. Did i bring something useful for myself? Did i change to be a better person? I cried. I didnt know what to say. I felt i did nothing in US. I wanted to come back to US and fixed everything. That was the forth night, the last night i had the same dreams -.-

i cant remember the details in my dreams. well u know everyone cant tell their dreams exactly what they had, we'll forget the plot in a few minutes after we wake up. anyway, it haunted me haha. it make me questioned what i've been done here. have i reached my goals? have i did something that really make me realizing something good?? am i right to go here? the most important thing, do i have a good intention for coming here?