Goodness. I don't know what to say. I'm so excited yet terrified to be included in adult life! I'm now a college student! Can you believe that? LOL
Thank God, Alhamdulillah, I just got accepted in ITB majoring at Pharmacy. I was so worried about the result of the test, well my post before talked about my wish of an acceptance of snmptn undangan, unfortunately ITB didn't accept me and I cried over night :s hahah but still I am happy now cz finally i'm here, typing in a dormitory <3
I can't say thank enough to God and everyone that wished me luck everytime. I do believe the miracle of hard work and pray, I do believe the miracle of luck. You know what, I'm reading this book by Alanda Kariza called Dream Catcher, it says: "Luck is preparation meets opportunity. So, when the opportunity comes, we have to make sure we are ready for it." I love that quote. It succeeded to convince me that actually luck doesn't come just like that. You get luck because you prepare for it. If we know someone is luck without hard work or preparation, I don't think that someone didn't do anything, they must've done a preparation, whatever it is.
Anyway, I can't hide my fear here. Pharmacy isn't easy. I'm scared I can't do well. Whenever I dealt with Chemistry before the result of snmptn came up, felt I could do better in Biology. Also there was this English teacher told me that Pharmacists just make sick people worst, they made poisoned (medicines: you take medicines for a long period of time, your body would be worst, everyone knows it, it's like a medicine dependent kind of thing. Pharmacists make Herbalist or Herbal Scientist do not publish their experiments because Pharmacists company avoid bankruptcy) so somehow I hoped the result would bring me to SITH instead of Pharmacy. The fact, God wanted me in Pharmacy. I thanked God, really. It's just this feeling of fear that I just need to get rid of. I have to convince myself Chemistry isn't that bad and Pharmacists actually do not intend to poison people, oh please. I could be a herbalist ;)
Well. Here I go. Here. Doing an adult life. Trying to be a grown up girl.
